to pain ones self

from The Collaborative International Dictionary of English v.0.48
Pain \Pain\, v. t. [imp. & p. p. {Pained} (p[=a]nd); p. pr. &
   vb. n. {Paining}.] [OE. peinen, OF. pener, F. peiner to
   fatigue. See {Pain}, n.]
   1. To inflict suffering upon as a penalty; to punish. [Obs.]
      --Wyclif (Acts xxii. 5).
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   2. To put to bodily uneasiness or anguish; to afflict with
      uneasy sensations of any degree of intensity; to torment;
      to torture; as, his dinner or his wound pained him; his
      stomach pained him.
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            Excess of cold, as well as heat, pains us. --Locke
      .
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   3. To render uneasy in mind; to disquiet; to distress; to
      grieve; as, a child's faults pain his parents.
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            I am pained at my very heart.         --Jer. iv. 19.
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   {To pain one's self}, to exert or trouble one's self; to take
      pains; to be solicitous. [Obs.] "She pained her to do all
      that she might." --Chaucer.
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   Syn: To disquiet; trouble; afflict; grieve; aggrieve;
        distress; agonize; torment; torture.
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